An Open Letter to Life

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Stepped on the scale today, 281…..finally. 9 pounds down, 131 more to go. It’s crazy to think that I carry the extra weight of another person with me, all the time. It even weirder to imagine how it’s everyday life for me. I guess it takes a few steps out of the box it look at it like that, but when you really think about it, why didn’t I realize it sooner, or why didn’t I change sooner. I guess things happen when they need to happen, but if I could have one more do-over things would be a lot different.

I use to be one of those people who though fitness nuts, were well…nutty. I couldn’t grasp the greatness they saw in being healthy. Then again at that time, I knew I was overweight, but I just thought I was chubby. Now looking back, I was in fact obese. It’s a sad truth, but now I have come to be very humble and admit my wrong doings,  and wrong way of living. I am now proud to be a fitness nut like those people I thought were crazy, because in the end I will be a better, stronger, and healthier person. On a side note, I have lost 4 pounds…in 4 days 🙂 286, and only 131 more to go. One day at a time

At 4 days of working out I feel so good. I get up ready to go to the gym and do my workout. At my gym they have little ads on the tvs and they are very inspirational to me. They keep pushing me, those tiny little words help alot

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Muscles burning+heart pounding=body changing

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It’s crazy how those help me, but they do. I feel like I’m accomplishing something, that and when I don’t leave covered in sweat, I feel like I didn’t do a good enough job. I use to come to this gym and lift a few weights and half ass it, but now I have something to prove. I feel like I’ve made my weight loss a “public” thing and I can’t let anyone down. Even if I don’t have anyone reading this and wanting me succeed, I have to do it for myself. Later readers, will be at it again tomorrow 🙂

It has been really fun actually, I took a long look at myself in the mirror and really looked. I saw where years of not taking care of myself have taken a hold on my body. It wasn’t fun to sit there and admit that to myself. But it was something that needed to be done for my sake. I scrolled through pictures to find a time where I was happy with my body, and I found one.

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Don’t mind the hair….it was a phase. I can actually say that I was truly happy with the way my body looked then. I was a size 14-16, roughly 160? I didn’t mind being a little heavier then. Because I had curves. Now, I look at my, now 286 l lb (I’ve already lost 4 pounds) body, I just want to kick myself in the ass.

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This is going to be tough, but I’ve left the gym covered in sweat for 3 days now. I’m sore, but it’s worth it 🙂 thanks for supporting me whoever is reading this


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